| 뱃속까지드러내고싶은이 더러운 기분. 토할꺼같아. |
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| i almost forgot that i had this thing...
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| Sometimes it's important to state the non-obvious and the obvious.
edit.
But at most of times, it's not worth your time.
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| Silence is golden.
I've come to include this proverb in one of my philosophies. The more I speak, the more I turn into an idiot. The hidden thoughts and ideas that reside in my mind should stay there and die within my mind with all the ignorance it needs. Once it transfers through my lips and hits the fresh air, the confusing thoughts aren't so confusing anymore; it turns into a clear fact of my life. Once it turns into a fact, I have trouble ignoring what I know. I can't live without the idea, and I can't abandon it. So I end up adding another burden to life, which makes me a softer person.
Soft spot.
The reason why I have trouble being silent is because I believe in communication. However, I realized that speaking my mind frequently makes others believe that I'm one insensitive ignorant person. I will come out of my closet and make it public. You could take it or leave it: just because people don't talk about their soft spots, that does not make one a strong person. This is something I learned from my personal experience and observing other people. Most people that are close to me are opinionated and loud, that are afraid to show their soft spots to others. But in the midst of laughter and immaturity we share, there is a common silent acknowledgment that we are all sensitive inside. I guess if someone's reading this thinking, "Sarah Kim, sensitive? Pshhhhhh~" that's fine too. That only means we will never share that intimacy.
Intimacy.
-Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know.-
I saw snow for the first time during this season.
I checked the weather this morning and it said that it's going to snow later in the afternoon, so I prepared myself by taking out the thickest coat I have, which resulted in me sweating like a pig walking to campus. It's a good idea to prepare ourselves for the worst, but I realize sometimes it might be wiser to live life as is in the present and enjoy the little surprises around us.
Okay, back to the boring book.
And everyone should update xanga more often with lots of writings. Xanga stalking is more fun than facebook since there are more things to read about other people's lives. =P |
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